I am Scared

I am scared because
You were my first everything
My first time
My first love
My first heartbreak.

You were my best friend,
My lover
My favorite what-if
Hell
You were the fucking blood in my veins for what felt like forever

I keep wishing to forget you
But I am scared
How one day my kids are going to ask me
What it's like to be in love
For the first time

And your face will pop into my head
I am scared
I will never escape this
No matter how much people say time heals

-Phospheous-